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For Me

 Hello. The first time I wrote like this in this kind of format is when I started this account. I just want to share this lesson or an idea, maybe? Whatever you want to call it. It depends on you.

I have always been asking myself what do you like? What is your biggest dream? What's your favorite food? Or any questions about myself. But my answers will always be depends on what I want in that moment, that is based on people who I really want to please, or to those people whom I want to be. All those answers are really not for myself. Maybe that's when it started. 

Then it became a habit. I slowly became someone people want me to be, to fit in. I forgot my dreams when I was a child, I forgot what's really my favorite food, what do I want in life, where do I want to go and many more. I don't even know now what's my favorite color. Then it got worse. I now find it hard to burst all my feelings, it's now so hard to cry. Because what I feel is not worse and they can't relate, and I think I don't have the right to be sad knowing I'm clueless why am I really feeling bad. But it doesn't really mean that I don't really know the reason, I have been indenial for a longtime now, that became the reason why all this time, I thought I'm clueless. 

Now, I want to know myself and what I really want. I want to know my decisions, my hates and likes, my favorite color, movie or food. I want to ask myself what is my dream and goal deciding without depending on others. I want to appreciate myself more, to compliment her without comparing myself on others and thinking I don't deserve any recognition. 

Before ending this, I want to ask myself... "Who are you?" 






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